So… Why have I not been posting much?
You may notice (if you are a regular visitor to this page) that some things have changed – the colours for example. Previously they were a very fetching purple to reflect the corporate colour of my employer – Bishop Grosseteste University.
Sadly, the University has decided that music is no longer something that they wish to offer, so my post with them disappears in a couple of weeks’ time. However, as they were not interested in carrying on any community music activities, they said it was fine for me to continue working with the groups that I had spent so long with, and this website was always my own, so… here I am, self-employed!
It is a bit of a scary undertaking, if I’m honest – I’m going through a period of extreme change at the moment – my divorce was finalised in February, my Ex and I are trying to sell the marital home and now I’m out of a regular job. It’s all a bit intense if I stop to think about it too much…
But the more I think about it, the more I realise that there are opportunities in all these ‘negative’ changes:
I’m divorced. My marriage of 25 years has gone. BUT… I’m with a new partner now, and he makes me incredibly happy. The opportunity to experience the excitement of new love at this stage of my life is a wonderful one, and I’m relishing it. My new partner get the person I am NOW, as opposed to my Ex who probably saw me as an echo of who I was 20 years ago. I’m in love: the bubbly, gushy, smoochy kind of love and it is wonderful.
I’m selling my “forever home”. BUT… I’m going to be moving out of the tiny village where I’ve lived for 16 years and into the nearby city. I can go out at nights, my daughter can have friends over to stay, and best of all, I hope to be able to buy something little without the need for a mortgage!
I’ve been made redundant. BUT… There has never been a better time to try going self-employed. Once I am in the city I will be setting up a teaching studio and taking private students again. My choirs are going strong and I’m trying out some new formulas on older events. I’m very excited about the whole thing.
I’m embracing the change and all the wonderful things that it can bring me. Running through everything is the thread of music and my ongoing desire to share that with other people, and help them to find a place for it in their own lives.
I think the future is looking pretty bright these days!